Wednesday, December 16, 2015
I want to talk a bit about domestic abuse. I think it is important for people to talk about this topic and to discuss this issue with your sons and daughters, both for the reasons that they do not becomes victims and that they do not become abusers.
When I was 14 years old until I was 17, I was in a relationship with a boy from school. As I think most kids were at that age and during that period of time (40 years ago) I was dumb. I had never been given any information about domestic abuse and what was appropriate and not in relationships between boys and girls. I don’t blame my parents for this, I just think it was a different time, and perhaps they didn’t know what was happening to me either. I may not have talked about it and have recently been told by a close friend that she wasn’t aware of what was going on either.
The abuse was not physical, except for two incidences that come to mind, once he tried to put me into a car against my will and one slap. What happened to me was abuse, however. When you are told that you can’t wear shirts or shorts because other boys will look at your legs, and the density of your clothing’s fabric is scrutinized, that’s abuse. When you are not “allowed” to speak to other people, that’s abuse. When you are not allowed to engage in activities that are meaningful and important to you because you might have interactions with others that threaten the other person’s security in the relationship, that’s abuse. When you have to escape your home and stay with relatives for two weeks to escape incessant phone calls and pleading, when you finally have the courage to break off the relationship, that’s abuse.
Thankfully, my experience happened early and I was not involved to the extent of marrying or heaven forbid, having children with this person, so I could escape mostly unscathed. In fact, perhaps I should thank my abuser.
Thank you abuser for helping me to develop my determination which has served me well.
Thank you abuser for introducing me to the particular character traits of an abuser at a young age, so that I could recognize and avoid those later in my life when that kind of relationship might have been more damaging.
Thank you for helping me develop my skepticism, sarcasm and survival mentality.
I’m sure there are others, but I think this gets the point across.
Now, 40 years later, there is more education and discussion on this point, however, I am sure that there are still abusers and the abused, controlling and the controlled, the ones demeaning and the ones being demeaned. The abusers take no responsibility because in their eyes, they’ve done nothing wrong. This attitude has to change because if it doesn’t, we will continue to raise generation after generation of men and women who abuse and generations of men and women for whom abuse is normal.
As to my abuser, if you are reading this, perhaps over the years you have changed. I hope so.
Sunday, August 23, 2015
Thursday, September 5, 2013
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Sent: Wednesday, July 21, 2004 3:37 PM
Subject: FW: Tracking Down Dr. Ning Li
From: Eugene Podkletnov [mailto:email@example.com]
Sent: Wednesday, June 16, 2004 12:34 PM
Subject: RE: Tracking Down Dr. Ning Li
All I can tell you is that Ning is all right, she is working for DOD and
therefore is not permitted to discuss her work openly. I do not know her
working email address, she phoned me couple of times this year and we
some brief exchange of opinions on superconductors and their structure.
I know that her parents, brother and husband all live in the USA, they
doctors and rather rich.
Ning still has an apartment in Huntsville but I do not know where her
DOD is a serious organisation and I frankly have no idea how to get the
address. Still, Ning Li was present at the conference on gravity waves
organised by MITRE, they should have her address.
The idea of gravity shielding seems to attract people from China, a
theoretical article was published by Ning Wu, as discussed at Greenglow.
Later, if you want this topic at your site, we can talk on the phone or
exchange information by email when it is convenient.
Best wishes Eugene
>Every 2 months, I re-try the firstname.lastname@example.org email address that you
>gave me for Dr. Ning Li -- I can tell from return-receipts that
>somebody is reading her email, but I never get a reply. I don't have
>any additional information about her, such as a telephone number, so I
>am unable to try and get in touch with her any other way.
>I did a trace on a message and it appears that whomever is reading her
>emails is checking them via a web-interface off a proxy-server from
>West Point, GA.
>Over the last few days I have talked to magazine-writers, University
>Professors, and her research colleagues -- I'm unable to get in touch
>with anyone who knows where she's at. Marc Millis doesn't have any
>information about her, but Jonathan Campbell recalls hearing a vague
>rumor that she was ill last year.
>What I do have is a detailed document stating that nearly $500,000 was
>allocated to her by the Department of Defense for researching
>'AC-Gravity' effects in superconductors. This funding should have
>become effective Sept 2002.
>I'd like to include information about her in a piece that I'm planning
>on the 'Podkletnov Device' and your research into SC Gravitational
>Shielding -- the overall idea being that I haven't covered this topic
>in-depth yet, and I really ought to try and put as detailed a
>description online as possible.
>Any thoughts on which direction I should take this?
>Also, I'd be interested in doing an interview with you for the website
>in the near future, if and when you have available time.
Friday, January 4, 2013
I can not imagine how anyone can be this stupid.
The operator pulls out a cigarette lighter from his pocket for illumination of the inside of the tank, evidently to see how much fuel is inside.
I hope you don't try this at home, but if you do... make sure it is on video so we all can laugh at your dumbass.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
2012 was a fucked up year.
We witnessed the most brain dead presidential campaign ever. The Republican primary was a clown show of idiocy that was of jaw dropping magnitude. The winner of that goat fucking was Mitt Romney. A Thurston Howell clone, he managed to put a face on how out of touch the uber rich are with normal people.
A child molester managed to forever tarnish a great college football legacy and coach at Penn State.
A horrible super storm named Sandy devastated the east coast.
We found out that the Mayans can't predict the end of the world any better than the fucking Christians can.
Evidently, Lance Armstrong turned out to be a goddam doping cheater after all.
Despite America putting a self contained robotic mobile laboratory on Mars utilizing a never before seen rocket powered hover crane on its last leg of the interplanetary journey, our country is still riddled with anti science imbeciles. Many of which sit in congress. And on the science and technology committee no less.
There was a horrible shooting at an elementary school. A tragedy which sent gun sales and stocks soaring.
Before that, we had an idiot seeking his 15 minutes by shooting a bunch of people at a goddam premier of a fucking Batman movie.
Before that, a kid was killed by a self appointed neighborhood watch commander.
Yeah. 2012 was a fucked up year. Even the good stuff got overshadowed.
Fuck you 2012. Rot in Hell, you bitch.